Firstly ...
Hi Guys !!! Sorry for the long hiatus okay ... Have really been beeezzzzy (no idea with what too,just have no time to blog. Or just plain lazy hahaha) !
So i'll start off with my day out with this pretty sweet girl , Elyna , we went to town because she want to get her Pandora bracelet ! Totally a wonderful day out with her :)
Secondly ...
Had a bad cry the night before this (not over some bastards , not to worry) ... Thats why i had swollen eye :( Can't even draw my eyeliner ! See how bad it is ?
So my aunty ask me out to town for shopping because my mum told her i am in a foul mood ...
Indeed a shopping date uh , every time WITHOUT fail i always spend at least $100 when i am out with my aunt ! hahaha . So i(so called) bought a Michael Kors cobalt blue clutch for myself hehehehe , in love with the color! You'll be seeing it later on ^^
Had High-Tea at Marriott Hotel
The spread is not a lot .. But their food is good!(at least for me) . Especially their laksa !
More to international buffet style ..
Having a hard time picking which clutch to get ... Initially i wanted to get the one in Stripes because it's really nice , & it is in the summer collection(if i am not wrong)! But ... my aunty made a point . She said , firstly it will get dirty easily . Secondly , after awhile you'll stop using it when stripes no longer in trend .
Sigh , i can never outtalk her hahaha . Opps .
Check out my new baby, cobalt blue clutch ^^
Thirdly ...
Last Sunday, Randy & i went Rochester's starbuck for a study date!
No idea why i can NEVER study at home hahaha , i'll just lie down on my bed using my phone ...
Anyhoooows , school is starting in a day time :((((( *cries*
Forth ....
Bought my mum back to Marriott Hotel for high tea(again,for me) because i just wanna share ALL those good food with her ! heheheheh . I know you guys would be thinking "Aiya just admit you wanna E A T" Yayayaya , i wanna eat hahahah !
Look alike ? hehehe my piaoliang mama !*kisses*
Personally i think i look more like daddy haha . But a lot people say i look like mummy , really ?
Fifth ...
Finally a good day out with my girls ! Sadly , we didn't take any pictures :(
We catch Monster University which made me laugh really really really HARD . Cant stop slapping Wanyu's & Peien's arms !!! Sorry girls hahaha .
Went a little crazy at Jem's H&M hahaha . Well ... you know me (insert smug face)
Check out my new turban head yo !
Top from H&M
Skirt from Shopselcouth!(it is tagged from H&M though)
Shall end this post with my awkward head//hand posse *cries*
muah
xx
2010 , 03 september is the best day i ever had . I met someone i truly love with my whole life , he is such a darling to me . First guy ever date me F2F ... First guy that i ever smile and cry so much for ...
Remember all those small little things he did . Like waiting for me in school till he fell asleep at the canteen , had breakfast together without fail , protect me like a princess , deliver herbal tea & soup to me whenever i fell ill . I know i didn't show much appreciation when we're together , because i am not that type of girl who show everything .
2011 , 03 october is OUR birthday . Yes we had the same birthday . I know it is kinda stupid but i felt like God send him to me as a guardian angel whom born on the same day as me . Though 2011 was the worst year we had .. all the ups & downs .. But still , we made it thru . We cherished each other even more after those obstacles ... He still accept me despite those wrongs i did , and i also accept him as who he is again despite what he did .
We spent our birthday with my family members and he bought a set of body lotion , scrub . Love him for being so thoughtful because i was really tanned in the past. Kept complaining to him i am so dark, so when he pass me those gifts he said "Buy you this because you kept complaining you very tanned haha" <3 p="">
2012 , 14 february a V's day . I never spent V's day with someone i love before , never ever .
He is the first guy who spent it together with me , surprised me with Coach wristlet , bring me to a posh restaurant . Though he know he gonna spend a huge sum of money ... But he still did all those surprises for me .
2012 , 03 october is our birthday again . But then we wasn't that happy , simple as before anymore . He became more into labels which irks me(i know i know , sorry) because he no longer used to be like before , the one who love me & our simplicity . He expect more & more . I got tired . So we started to drift apart . He say i don't love him as much as before because i am tired thus i became more care-less . But i still love him as much as i do from the start . I hated his friends so so much .... for bringing to club so often & changed him into a different person . Then , i came to realize that there's no one i could blame but him . It takes both hands to clap .
November 2012 ...
Everything came to an end .
Missing him so much . Looking upon the moon , hoping he does it too because that shows our heart stays as one .
Checking him out behind his back , hoping he is doing well .
But soon , i got tired and stop doing so because i know his heart no longer has me . But still , love him so much . My heart skip a beat whenever he talk to me , kinda stupid right ... Still stay by him (not together still) when he was so so so worried about his school stuff . Encouraging him everyday by sending him inspiring text/quotes . I AM THE DUMBEST GIRL EVER . I KNOW .
Looking at him , watching him loving another girl is the hardest & most heartbreaking thing i ever done.
Knowing that you're clubbing every night irks me even further ...
30 June 2013 ...
Tonight , i officially give up .
Dont blame me for giving up , stop loving him & move on ...
I am flying solo ... because i know i don't need to be in a relationship in order to live a fulfilled life .
I realise i can be as great as before even if i am single .
I acknowledge that there are PLENTY of things i can do even if i am on individual .
I came to know that ...... leaving him is for good which i always force myself to believe so .
Z ,
I wish you all the best .
I am no longer going to be by your side .
I am no longer going to love you .
I have to move on .
I believe that one day , not now i know , my heart will feel nothing towards you .
Goodbye .
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